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In the summer of 1880 I set out from Fort Wrangell in a canoe to
continue the exploration of the icy region of southeastern Alaska,
begun in the fall of 1879. After the necessary provisions, blankets,
etc., had been collected and stowed away, and my Indian crew were
in their places ready to start, while a crowd of their relatives
and friends on the wharf were bidding them good-by and good-luck,
my companion, the Rev. S. H. Young, for whom we were waiting, at
last came aboard, followed by a little black dog, that immediately
made himself at home by curling up in a hollow among the baggage.
I like dogs, but this one seemed so small and worthless that I objected
to his going, and asked the missionary why he was taking him.
"Such a little helpless creature will only be in the way,"
I said; "you had better pass him up to the Indian boys on the
wharf, to be taken home to play with the children. This trip is
not likely to be good for toy-dogs. This poor silly thing will be
in rain and snow for weeks or months, and will require care like
a baby."
But his master assured me that he would be no trouble at all; that
he was a perfect wonder of a dog, could endure cold and hunger like
a bear, swim like a seal, and was wondrous wise and cunning, etc.,
making out a list of virtues to show he might be the most interesting
member of the party.
Nobody could hope to unravel the lines of his ancestry. In all
the wonderfully mixed and varied dog-tribe I never saw any creature
very much like him, though in some of his sly, soft, gliding motions
and gestures he brought the fox to mind. He was soft-legged and
bunchy-bodied, and his hair, though smooth, was long and silky and
slightly waved, so that when the wind was at his back it ruffled,
making him look shaggy. At first sight his only noticeable feature
was his fine tail, which was about as airy and shady as a squirrel's,
and was carried curling forward almost to his nose. On closer inspection
you might notice his thin sensitive ears, and sharp eyes with cunning
tan-spots above them. Mr. Young told me that when the little fellow
was a pup about the size of a woodrat he was presented to his wife
by an Irish prospector at Sitka, and that on his arrival at Fort
Wrangell he was adopted with enthusiasm by the Stickeen Indians
as a sort of new good-luck totem, was named "Stickeen"
for the tribe, and became a universal favorite; petted, protected,
and admired wherever he went, and regarded as a mysterious fountain
of wisdom.
On our trip he soon proved himself a queer character-odd, concealed,
independent, keeping invincibly quiet, and doing many little puzzling
things that piqued my curiosity. As we sailed week after week through
the long intricate channels and inlets among the innumerable islands
and mountains of the coast, he spent most of the dull days in sluggish
ease, motionless, and apparently as unobserving as if in deep sleep.
But I discovered that somehow he always knew what was going on.
When the Indians were about to shoot at ducks or seals, or when
anything along the shore was exciting our attention, he would rest
his chin on the edge of the canoe and calmly look out like a dreamy-eyed
tourist. And when he heard us talking about making a landing, he
immediately roused himself to see what sort of a place we were coming
to, and made ready to jump overboard and swim ashore as soon as
the canoe neared the beach. Then, with a vigorous shake to get rid
of the brine in his hair, he ran into the woods to hunt small game.
But though always the first out of the canoe, he was always the
last to get into it. When we were ready to start he could never
be found, and refused to come to our call. We soon found out, however,
that though we could not see him at such times, he saw us, and from
the cover of the briers and huckleberry bushes in the fringe of
the woods was watching the canoe with wary eye. For as soon as we
were fairly off he came trotting down the beach, plunged into the
surf, and swam after us, knowing well that we would cease rowing
and take him in. When the contrary little vagabond came alongside,
he was lifted by the neck, held at arm's length a moment to drip,
and dropped aboard. We tried to cure him of this trick by compelling
him to swim a long way, as if we had a mind to abandon him; but
this did no good; the longer the swim the better he seemed to like
it.
Though capable of great idleness, he never failed to be ready for
all sorts of adventures and excursions. One pitch-dark rainy night
we landed about ten o'clock at the mouth of a salmon stream when
the water was phosphorescent. The salmon were running, and the myriad
fins of the on-rushing multitude were churning all the stream into
a silvery flow, wonderfully beautiful and impressive in the ebon
darkness. To get a good view of the show I set out with one of the
Indians and sailed up through the midst of it to the foot of a rapid
about half a mile from camp, where the swift current dashing over
rocks make the luminous glow most glorious. Happening to look back
down the stream, while the Indian was catching a few of the struggling
fish, I saw a long spreading fan of light like the tail of a comet,
which we thought was must be made by some big strange animal that
was pursuing us. On it came with its magnificent train, until we
imagined we could see the monster's head and eyes; but it was only
Stickeen, who, finding I had left the camp, came swimming after
me to see what was up.
When we camped early, the best hunter of the crew usually went
to the woods for a deer, and Stickeen was sure to be at his heels,
provided I had not gone out. For, strange to say, though I never
carried a gun, he always followed me, forsaking the hunter and even
his master to share my wanderings. The days that were too stormy
for sailing I spent in the woods, or on the adjacent mountains,
wherever my studies called me; and Stickeen always insisted on going
with me, however wild the weather, gliding like a fox through dripping
huckleberry bushes and thorny tangles of panax and rubus, scarce
stirring their rain-laden leaves; wading and wallowing through snow,
swimming icy streams, skipping over logs and rocks and the crevasses
of glaciers with the patience and endurance of a determined mountaineer,
never tiring or getting discouraged. Once he followed me over a
glacier the surface of which was so crusty and rough that it cut
his feet until every step was marked with blood; but he trotted
on which Indian fortitude until I noticed his red track, and, taking
pity on him, made him a set of moccasins out of a handkerchief.
However great his troubles he never asked help or made any complain,
as if, like a philosopher, he had learned that without hard work
and suffering there would be no pleasure worth having.
Yet none of us was really able to make out what Stickeen was really
good for. He seemed to meet danger and hardships without anything
like reason, insisted on having his own way, never obeyed an order,
and the hunter could never set him on anything, or make him fetch
the birds he shot. His equanimity was so steady it seemed due to
want of feeling; ordinary storms were pleasures to him, and as for
mere rain, he flourished in it like a vegetable. No matter what
advances you might make, scarce a glance or a tailwag would you
get for your pains. But though he was apparently as cold as a glacier
and about as impervious to fun, I tried hard to make his acquaintance,
guessing there must be something worth while hidden beneath so much
courage, endurance, and love of wild-weathery adventure. No superannuated
mastiff or bulldog grown old in office surpassed this fluffy midget
in stoic dignity. He sometimes reminded me of a small, squat, unshakable
desert cactus. For he never displayed a single trace of the merry,
tricksy, elfish fun of the terriers and collies that we all know,
nor of their touching affection and devotion. Like children, most
small dogs beg to be loved and allowed to live; but Stickeen seemed
a very Diogenes, asking only to be let alone: a true child of the
wilderness, holding the even tenor of his hidden life with the silence
and serenity of nature. His strength of character lay in his eyes.
they looked as old as the hills, and as young, and as wild. I never
tired of looking into them: it was like looking into a landscape;
but they were small and rather deepset, and had no explaining lines
around them to give them particulars. I was accustomed to look into
the faces of plants and animals, and I watched the little sphinx
more and more keenly as an interesting study. But there is no estimating
the wit and wisdom concealed and latent in our lower fellow mortals
until made manifest by profound experiences; for it is through suffering
that dogs as well as saints are developed and made perfect.
After exploring the Sum Dum and Tahkoo fiords and their glaciers,
we sailed through Stephen's Passage into Lynn Canal and thence through
Icy Strait into Cross Sound, searching for unexplored inlets toward
the great fountain icefields of the Fairweather Range. Here, while
the tide was in our favor, we were accompanied by a fleet of icebergs
drifting out to the ocean from Glacier bay. Slowly we paddled around
Vancouver's Point, Wimbledon, our frail canoe tossed like a feather
on the massive heaving swells coming in past Cape Spenser. For miles
the sound is bounded by precipitous mural cliffs, which, lashed
with wavespray and their heads hidden in clouds, looked terribly
threatening and stern. Had our canoe been crushed or upset we could
have made no landing here, for the cliffs, as high as those of Yosemite,
sink sheer into deep water. Eagerly we scanned the wall of the north
side for the first sign of an opening fiord or harbor, all of us
anxious except Stickeen, who dozed in peace or gazed dreamily at
the tremendous precipices when he heard us talking about them. At
length we made the joyful discovery of the mouth of the inlet now
called "Taylor Bay," and about five o'clock reached the
head of it and encamped in a spruce grove near the front of a large
glacier.
While camp was being make, Joe the hunter climbed the mountain
wall on the east side of the fiord in pursuit of wild goats, while
Mr. Young and I went to the glacier. We found that it is separated
from the waters of the inlet by a tide-washed moraine, and extends,
an abrupt barrier, all the way across from wall to wall of the inlet,
a distance of about three miles. But our most interesting discovery
was that it had recently advanced, through again slightly receding.
A portion of the terminal moraine had been plowed up and shoved
forward, uprooting and overwhelming the woods on the east side.
Many of the trees were down and buried, or nearly so, others were
leaning away from the ice-cliffs, ready to fall, and some stood
erect, with the bottom of the ice plow still beneath their roots
and its lofty crystal spires towering high about their tops. The
spectacle presented by these century-old trees standing close beside
a spiry wall of ice, with their branches almost touching it, was
most novel and striking. And when I climbed around the front, and
a little way up the west side of the glacier, I found that it had
swelled and increased in height and width in accordance with its
advance, and carried away the outer ranks of trees on its bank.
On our way back to the camp after these first observations I planned
a far-and wide excursion for the morrow. I awoke early, called not
only by the glacier, which had been on my mind all night, but by
a grand flood-storm. The wind was blowing a gale from the north
and the rain was flying with the clouds in a wide passionate horizontal
flood, as if it were all passing over the country instead of falling
on it. The main perennial streams were booming high above their
banks, and hundreds of new ones, roaring like the sea, almost covered
the lofty gray walls of the inlet with white cascades and falls.
I had intended making a cup of coffee and getting something like
a breakfast before starting, but when I heard the storm and looked
out I made haste to join it; for many of Nature's finest lessons
are to be found in her storms, and if careful to keep in right relations
with them, we may go safely abroad with them, rejoicing in the grandeur
and beauty of their works and ways, and chanting with the old Norsemen,
"The blast of the tempest aids our oars, the hurricane is our
servant and drives us whither we wish to go." So, omitting
breakfast, I put a piece of bread in my pocket and hurried away.
Mr. Young and the Indians were asleep, and so, I hoped, was Stickeen;
but I had not gone a dozen rods before he left his bed in the tent
and came boring through the blast after me. That a man should welcome
storms for their exhilarating music and motion, and go forth to
see God making landscapes, is reasonable enough; but what fascination
could there be in such tremendous weather for a dog? Surely nothing
akin to human enthusiasm for scenery or geology. Anyhow, on he came,
breakfastless, through the choking blast. I stopped and did my best
to turn him back. "Now don't," I said, shouting to make
myself heard in the storm, "now don't, Stickeen. What has got
into your queer noddle now? You must be daft. This wild day has
nothing for you. There is no game abroad, nothing but weather. Go
back to camp and keep warm, get a good breakfast with your master,
and be sensible for once. I can't carry you all day or feed you,
and this storm will kill you.
But Nature, it seems, was at the bottom of the affair, and she
gains her ends with dogs as well as with men, making us do as she
likes, shoving and pulling us along her ways, however rough, all
but killing us at times in getting her lessons driven hard home.
After I had stopped again and again, shouting good warning advice,
I saw that he was not to be shaken off; as well might the earth
try to shake off the moon. I had once led his master into trouble,
when he fell on one of the topmost jags of a mountain and dislocated
his arm; how the turn of his humble companion was coming. The pitiful
wanderer just stood there in the wind, drenched and blinking, saying
doggedly, "Where thou goest I will go." So at last I told
him to come on if he must, and gave him a piece of the bread I had
in my pocket; then we struggled on together, and thus began the
most memorable of all my wild days.
The level flood, driving hard in our faces, thrashed and washed
us wildly until we got into the shelter of a grove on the east side
of the glacier near the front, where we stopped awhile for breath
and to listen and look out. The exploration of the glacier was my
main object, but the wind was too high to allow excursions over
its open surface, where one might be dangerously shoved while balancing
for a jump on the brink of a crevasse. In the mean time the storm
was a fine study. Here the end of the glacier, descending an abrupt
well of resisting rock about five hundred feet high, leans forward
and falls in ice-cascades. And as the storm came down the glacier
from the north, Stickeen and I were beneath the main current of
the blast, while favorably located to see and hear it. What a psalm
the storm was singing, and how fresh the smell of the washed earth
and leaves, and how sweet the still small voices of the storm! Detached
wafts and swirls were coming through the woods, with music from
the leaves and branches and furrowed boles, and even from the splintered
rocks and ice-crags overhead, many of the tones soft and low and
flute-like, as if each leaf and tree, drag and spire were a tuned
reed. A broad torrent, draining the side of the glacier, now swollen
by scores of new streams from the mountains, was rolling boulders
along its rocky channel, with thudding, bumping, muffled sounds,
rushing toward the bay with tremendous energy, as if in haste to
get out of the mountains; the waters above and beneath called to
each other, and all to the ocean, their home.
Looking southward from our shelter, we had this great torrent and
the forested mountain wall above it on our left, the spiry ice-crags
on our right, and smooth gray gloom ahead. I tried to draw the marvelous
scene in my notebook, but the rain blurred the page in spite of
all my pains to shelter it, and the sketch was almost worthless.
When the wind began to abate, I traced the east side of the glacier.
All the trees standing on the edge of the woods were barked and
bruised, showing high-ice mark in a very telling way, while tens
of thousands of those that had stood for centuries on the bank of
the glacier farther out lay crushed and being crushed. In many places
I could see down fifty feet or so beneath the margin of the glacier-mill,
where trunks from one to two feet in diameter were being ground
to pulp against outstanding rock-ribs and bosses of the bank.
About three miles above the front of the glacier I climbed to the
surface of it by means of axe-steps made easy for Stickeen. As far
as the eye could reach, the level, or nearly level, glacier stretched
away indefinitely beneath the gray sky, a seemingly boundless prairie
of ice. The rain continued, and grew colder, which I did not mind,
but a dim snowy look in the drooping clouds made me hesitate about
venturing far from land. No trace of the west shore was visible,
and in case the clouds should settle and give snow, or the wind
again become violent, I feared getting caught in a tangle of crevasses.
Snow-crystals, the flowers of the mountain clouds, are frail, beautiful
things, but terrible when flying on storm-winds in darkening, benumbing
swarms or when welded together into glaciers full of deadly crevasses.
Watching the weather, I sauntered about the crystal sea. For a mile
or two out I found the ice remarkably safe. The marginal crevasses
were mostly narrow, while the few wider ones were easily avoided
by passing around them, and the clouds began to open here and there.
Thus encouraged, I at last pushed out for the other side; for Nature
can make us do anything she likes. At first we made rapid progress
and the sky was not very threatening, while I took bearings occasionally
with a pocket compass to enable me to find my way back more surely
in case the storm should become blinding; but the structure lines
of the glacier were my main guide. Toward the west side we came
to a closely crevassed section in which we had to make long, narrow
tacks and doublings, tracing the edges of tremendous transverse
and longitudinal crevasses, many of which were from twenty to thirty
feet wide, and perhaps a thousand feet deep-beautiful and awful.
In working a way through them I was severely cautious, but Stickeen
came on as unhesitating as the flying clouds. The widest crevasse
that I would jump he would leap without so much as halting to take
a look at it. The weather was now making quick changes, scattering
bits of dazzling brightness through the wintry gloom; at rare intervals,
when the sun broke forth wholly free, the glacier was seen from
shore to shore with a bright array of encompassing mountains partly
revealed, wearing the clouds as garments, while the prairie bloomed
and sparkled with irised light from myriads of washed crystals.
Then suddenly all the glorious show would be darkened and blotted
out.
Stickeen seemed to care for none of these things, bright or dark,
nor for the crevasses, wells, moulins, or swift flashing streams
into which he might fall. The little adventurer was only about two
years old, yet nothing seemed novel to him, nothing daunted him.
He showed neither caution nor curiosity, wonder nor fear, but bravely
trotted on as if glaciers were playgrounds. His stout, muffled body
seemed all one skipping muscle, and it was truly wonderful to see
how swiftly and to all appearance heedlessly he flashed across nerve-trying
chasms six or eight feet wide. His courage was so unwavering that
it seemed to be due to dullness of perception, as if he were only
blindly bold; and I kept warning him to be careful. For we had been
close companions on so many wilderness trips that I had formed the
habit of talking to him as if he were a boy and understood every
word.
We gained the west shore in about three hours; the width of the
glacier here being about seven miles. Then I pushed northward in
order to see as far back as possible into the fountains of the Fairweather
Mountains, in case the clouds should rise. The walking was easy
along the margin of the forest, which, of course, like that on the
other side, had been invaded and crushed by the swollen, overflowing
glacier. In an hour or so, after passing a massive headland, we
came suddenly on a branch of the glacier, which, in the form of
a magnificent ice-cascade two miles wide, was pouring over the rim
of the main basin in a westerly direction, its surface broken into
wave-shaped blades and shattered blocks, suggesting the wildest
updashing, heaving, plunging motion of a great river cataract. Tracing
it down three or four miles, I found that it discharged into a lake,
filling it with icebergs.
I would gladly have followed the lake outlet to tide-water, but
the day was already far spent, and the threatening sky called for
haste on the return trip to get off the ice before dark. I decided
therefore to go no farther and, after taking a general view of the
wonderful region, turned back, hoping to see it again under more
favorable auspices. We made good speed up the cañon of the
great ice-torrent, and out on the main glacier until we had left
the west shore about two miles behind us. Here we got into a difficult
network of crevasses, the gathering clouds began to drop misty fringes,
and soon the dreaded snow came flying thick and fast. I now began
to feel anxious about finding a way in the blurring storm. Stickeen
showed no trace of fear. He was still the same silent, able little
hero. I noticed, however, that after the storm-darkness came on
he kept close up behind me. The snow urged us to make still greater
haste, but at the same time hid our way. I pushed on as best I could,
jumping innumerable crevasses, and for every hundred rods or so
of direct advance traveling a mile in doubling up and down in the
turmoil of chasms and dislocated ice-blocks. After an hour or two
of this work we came to a series of longitudinal crevasses of appalling
width, and almost straight and regular in trend, like immense furrows.
These I traced with firm nerve, excited and strengthened by the
danger, making wide jumps, poising cautiously on their dizzy edges
after cutting hollows for my feet before making the spring to avoid
possible slipping or any uncertainty on the farther sides, where
only one trial is granted-exercise at once frightful and inspiring.
Stickeen followed seemingly without effort.
Many a mile we thus traveled, mostly up and down, making but little
headway in crossing, running instead of walking most of the time
as the danger of being compelled to spend the night on the glacier
became threatening. Stickeen seemed able to anything. Doubtless
we would have weathered the storm for one night, dancing on a flat
spot to keep from freezing, and I faced the threat without feeling
anything like despair; but we were hungry and wet, and the wind
from the mountains was still thick with snow and bitterly cold,
so of course that night would have seemed a very long one. I could
not see far enough through the blurring snow to judge in which general
direction the least dangerous route lay, while the few dim, momentary
glimpses I caught of mountains through rifts in the flying clouds
were far from encouraging either as weather signs or as guides.
I had simply to grope my way from crevasse to crevasse, holding
a general direction by the ice-structure, which was not to be seen
everywhere, and partly by the wind. Again and again I was put to
my mettle, but Stickeen followed easily, his nerve apparently growing
more unflinching as the danger increased. So it always is with mountaineers
when hard beset. Running hard and jumping, holding every minute
of the remaining daylight, poor as it was, precious, we doggedly
persevered and tried to hope that every difficult crevasse we overcame
would prove to be the last of its kind. But on the contrary, as
we advanced they became more deadly trying.
At length our way was barred by a very wide and straight crevasse,
which I traced rapidly northward a mile or so without finding a
crossing or hope of one; then down the glacier about as far, to
where it united with another uncrossable crevasse. In all this distance
of perhaps two miles there was only one place where I could possibly
jump it, but the width of this jump was the utmost I dared attempt,
while the danger of slipping on the farther wide was so great that
I was loath to try it. Furthermore, the side I was on was about
a foot higher than the other, and even with this advantage the crevasse
seemed dangerously wide. One is liable to underestimate the width
of crevasses where the magnitudes in general are great. I therefore
stared at this one mighty keenly, estimating its width and the shape
of the edge on the farther side, until I thought that I could jump
it if necessary, but that in case I should be compelled to jump
back from the lower side I might fail. Now, a cautious mountaineer
seldom takes a step on unknown ground which seems at all dangerous
that he cannot retrace in case he should be stopped by unseen obstacles
ahead. This is the rule of mountaineers who live long, and, though
in haste, I compelled myself to sit down and calmly deliberate before
I broke it.
Retracing my devious path in imagination as if it were drawn on
a chart, I saw that I was recrossing the glacier a mile or two farther
up stream than the course pursued in the morning, and that I was
now entangled in a section I had not before seen. Should I risk
this dangerous jump, or try to regain the woods on the west shore,
make a fire, and have only hunger to endure while waiting for a
new day? I had already crossed so broad a stretch of dangerous ice
that I saw it would be difficult to get back to the woods through
the storm, before dark, and the attempt would most likely result
in a dismal night-dance on the glacier; while just beyond the present
barrier the surface seemed more promising, and the east shore was
now perhaps about as near as the west. I was therefore eager to
go on. But this wide jump was a dreadful obstacle.
At length, because of the dangers already behind me, I determined
to venture against those that might be ahead, jumped and landed
well, but with so little to spare that I more than ever dreaded
being compelled to take that jump back from the lower side. Stickeen
followed, making nothing of it, and we ran eagerly forward, hoping
we were leaving all our troubles behind. But within the distance
of a few hundred yards we were stopped by the widest crevasse yet
encountered. Of course I made haste to explore it, hoping all might
yet be remedied by finding a bridge or a way around either end.
About three fourths of a mile upstream I found that it united with
the one we had just crossed, as I feared it would. Then, tracing
it down, I found it joined the same crevasse at the lower end also,
maintaining throughout its whole course a width of forty to fifty
feet. Thus to my dismay I discovered that we were on a narrow island
about two miles long, with two barely possible ways to escape: one
back by the way we came, the other ahead by an almost inaccessible
sliver-bridge that crossed the great crevasse from near the middle
of it!
After this nerve-trying discovery I ran back to the sliver-bridge
and cautiously examined it. Crevasses, caused by strains from variations
in the rate of motion of different parts of the glacier and convexities
in the channel, are mere cracks when they first open, so narrow
as hardly to admit the blade of a pocket-knife, and gradually widen
according to the extent of the strain and the depth of the glacier.
Now some of these cracks are interrupted, like the cracks in wood,
and in opening, the strip of ice between overlapping ends is dragged
out, and may maintain a continuous connection between the side,
just as the two sides of a slivered crack in wood that is being
split are connected. Some crevasses remain open for months or even
years, and by the melting of their sides continue to increase in
width long after the opening strain has ceased; while the sliver-bridges,
level on top at first and perfectly safe, are at length melted to
thin, vertical, knife-edge blades, the upper portion being most
exposed to the weather; and since the exposure is greatest in the
middle, they at length curve downward like the cables of suspension
bridges. This one was evidently very old, for it had been weathered
and wasted until it was the most dangerous and inaccessible that
ever lay in my way. The width of the crevasse was here about fifty
feet. and the sliver crossing diagonally was about seventy feet
long; its thin knife-edge near the middle was depressed twenty-five
or thirty feet below the level of the glacier, and the up-curving
ends were attached to the side eight or ten feet below the brink.
Getting down the nearly vertical wall to the end of the sliver and
up the other side were the main difficulties, and they seemed all
but insurmountable. Of the many perils encountered in my years of
wandering on mountains and glaciers none seemed so plain and stern
and merciless as this. And it was presented when we were wet to
the skin and hungry, the sky dark with quick driving snow, and the
night near. But we were forced to face it. It was a tremendous necessity.
Beginning, not immediately above the sunken end of the bridge,
but a little to one side, I cut a deep hollow on the brink for my
knees to rest in. Then, learning over, with my short-handled axe,
I cut a step sixteen or eighteen inches below, which on account
of the sheerness of the wall was necessarily shallow. That step,
however, was well made; its floor sloped lightly inward and formed
a good hold for my heels. Then, slipping cautiously upon it, and
crouching as low as possible, with my left side toward the wall,
I steadied myself against the wind with my left hand in a slight
notch, while with the right I cut other similar steps and notches
in succession, guarding against losing balance by glinting of the
axe, or by wind-gusts, for life and death were in every stroke and
in the niceness of finish of every foothold.
After the end of the bridge was reached I chipped it down until
I had made a level platform six or eight inches wide, and it was
a trying thing to poise on this little slippery platform while bending
over to get safely astride of the sliver. Crossing was then comparatively
easy by chipping off the sharp edge with short, careful strokes,
and hitching forward an inch or two at a time, keeping my balance
with my knees pressed against the sides. The tremendous abyss on
either hand I studiously ignored. To me the edge of that blue sliver
was then all the world. But the most trying part of the adventure,
after working my way across inch by inch and chipping another small
platform, was to rise from the safe position astride and to cut
a stepladder in the nearly vertical face of the wall- chipping,
climbing, holding on with feet and fingers in mere notches. At such
times one's whole body is eye, and common skill and fortitude are
replaced by power beyond our call or knowledge. Never before had
I been so long under deadly strain. How I got up that cliff I never
could tell. The thing seemed to have been done by somebody else.
I never have held death in contempt, though in the course of my
explorations I have oftentimes felt that to meet one's fate on a
noble mountain, or in the heart of a glacier, would be blessed as
compared with death from disease, or from some shabby lowland accident.
But the best death, quick and crystal-pure, set so glaringly open
before us, is hard enough to face, even though we feel gratefully
sure that we have already had happiness enough for a dozen lives.
But poor Stickeen, the wee, hairy, sleekit beastie, think of him!
When I decided to dare the bridge, and while I was on my knees chipping
a hollow on the rounded brow above it, he came behind me, pushed
his had past my shoulder, looked down and across, scanned the sliver
and its approaches with his mysterious eyes, then looked me in the
face with a startled air of surprise and concern, and began to mutter
and whine; saying as plainly as if speaking with words, "Surely,
you are not going into that awful place." This was the first
time I had seen him gaze deliberately into a crevasses, or into
my face with an eager, speaking, troubled look. That he should have
recognized and appreciated the danger at the first glance showed
wonderful sagacity. Never before had the daring midget seemed to
know that ice was slippery or that there was any such thing as danger
anywhere. His looks and tones of voice when he began to complain
and speak his fears were so human that I unconsciously talked to
him in sympathy as I would to a frightened boy, and in trying to
calm his fears perhaps in some measure moderated my own. "Hush
your fears, my boy," I said, "we will get across safe,
though it is not going to be easy. No right way is easy in this
rough world. We must risk our lives to save them. At the worst we
can only slip, and then how grand a grave we will have, and by and
by our nice bones will do good in the terminal moraine."
But my sermon was far from reassuring him: he began to cry, and
after taking another piercing look at the tremendous gulf, ran away
in desperate excitement, seeking some other crossing. By the time
he got back, baffled of course, I had made a step or two. I dared
not look back, but he made himself heard; and when he saw that I
was certainly bent on crossing he cried aloud in despair. The danger
was enough to daunt anybody, but it seems wonderful that he should
have been able to weigh and appreciate it so justly. No mountaineer
could have seen it more quickly or judged it more wisely, discriminating
between real and apparent peril.
When I gained the other side, he screamed louder than ever, and
after running back and forth in vain search for a way of escape,
he would return to the brink of the crevasse above the bridge, moaning
and wailing as if in the bitterness of death. Could this be the
silent, philosophic Stickeen? I shouted encouragement, telling him
the bridge as not so bad as it looked, that I had left it flat and
safe for his feet, and he could walk it easily. But he was afraid
to try. Strange so small an animal should be capable of such big,
wise fears. I called again and again in a reassuring tone to come
on and fear nothing; that he could come if he would only try. He
would hush for a moment, look down again at the bridge, and shout
his unshakable conviction that he could never, never come that way;
then lie back in despair, as if howling, "O-o-oh! what a place!
No-o-o, I can never go-o-o down there!" his natural composure
and courage had vanished utterly in a tumultuous storm of fear.
Had the danger been less, his distress would have seemed ridiculous.
But in this dismal, merciless abyss lay the shadow of death, and
this heart-rending cries might well have called Heaven to his help.
Perhaps they did. So hidden before, he was now transparent, and
one could see the workings of his heart and mind like the movements
of a clock out of its case. His voice and gestures, hopes and fears,
were so perfectly human that none could mistake them; while he seemed
to understand every word of mine. I was troubled at the thought
of having to leave him out all night, and of the danger of not finding
him in the morning. It seemed impossible to get him to venture.
To compel him to try through fear of being abandoned, I started
off as it leaving him to his fate, and disappeared back of a hummock;
but this did no good; he only lay down and moaned in utter hopeless
misery. So, after hiding a few minutes, I went back to the brink
of the crevasses and in a severe tone of voice shouted across to
him that now I must certainly leave him I could wait no longer,
and that, if he would not come, all I could promise was that I would
return to seek him next day. I warned him that if he went back to
the woods the wolves would kill him, and finished by urging him
once more by words and gestures to come on, come on.
He knew very well what I meant, and at last, with the courage of
despair, hushed and breathless, he crouched down on the brink in
the hollow I had made for my knees, pressed his body against the
ice as if trying to get the advantage of the friction of every hair,
gazed into the first step, put his little feet together and slid
them slowly, slowly over the edge and down into it, bunching all
four in it and almost standing on his head. Then, without lifting
his feet, as well as I could see through the snow, he slowly worked
them over the edge of the step and down into the next and the next
in succession in the same way, and gained the end of the bridge.
Then, lifting his feet with the regularity and slowness of the vibrations
of a second pendulum, as if counting and measuring one-two-three,
holding himself steady against the gusty wind, and giving separate
attention to each little step, he gained the foot of the cliff,
while I was on my knees leaning over to give him a lift should be
succeed in getting within reach of my arm. Here he halted in silence
and it was here I feared he might fail, for dogs are poor climbers.
I had no cord. If I had had one, I would have dropped a noose over
his head and hauled him up. But while I was thinking whether an
available cord might be made out of clothing, he was looking keenly
into the series of notched steps and finger-holds I had made, as
if counting them, and fixing the position of each one of them in
his mind. Then suddenly up he came in a springy rush, hooking his
paws into the steps and notches so quickly that I could not see
how it was done, and whizzed past my head, safe at last!
And now came a scene! "Well done, well done, little boy! Brave
boy!" I cried, trying to catch and caress him; but he would
not be caught. Never before or since have I seen anything like so
passionate a revulsion from the depths of despair to exultant, triumphant,
uncontrollable joy. He flashed and darted hither and thither as
if fairly demented, screaming and shouting, swirling round and round
in giddy loops and circles like a leaf in a whirlwind, lying down,
and rolling over and over, sidewise and heels over head, and pouring
forth a tumultuous flood of hysterical cries and sobs and gasping
mutterings. When I ran up to him to shake him, fearing he might
die of joy, he flashed off two or three hundred years, his feet
in a mist of motion; then, turning suddenly, came back in a wild
rush and launched himself at my face, almost knocking me down, all
the time screeching and screaming and shouting as if saying, "Saved!
saved! saved!" Then away again, dropping suddenly at times
with his feet in the air, trembling and fairly sobbing. Such passionate
emotion was enough to kill him. Moses' stately song of triumph after
escaping the Egyptians and the Red Sea was nothing to it. Who could
have guessed the capacity of the dull, enduring little fellow for
all that most stirs this mortal frame? Nobody could have helped
crying with him!
But there is nothing like work for toning down excessive fear or
joy. So I ran ahead, calling him in as gruff a voice as I could
command to come on and stop his nonsense, for we had far to go and
it would soon be dark. Neither of us feared another trial like this.
heaven would surely count one enough for a lifetime. The ice ahead
was gashed by thousands of crevasses, but they were common ones.
The joy of deliverance burned in us like fire, and we ran without
fatigue, every muscle with immense rebound glorying in its strength.
Stickeen flew across everything in his way, and not till dark did
he settle into his normal foxlike trot. At last the cloudy mountains
came in sight, and we soon felt the solid rock beneath our feet,
and were safe. Then came weakness. Danger had vanished, and so had
our strength. We tottered down the lateral moraine in the dark,
over boulders and tree trunks, through the buses and devil-club
thickets of the grove where we had sheltered ourselves in the morning,
and across the level mudslope of the terminal moraine. We reached
camp about ten o'clock, and found a big fire and a big supper. A
party of Hoona Indians had visited Mr. Young, bringing a gift of
porpoise meat and wild strawberries, and Hunter Joe had brought
in a wild goat. But we lay down, too tired to each much, and soon
fell into a troubled sleep. The man who said, "The harder the
toil, the sweeter the rest," never was profoundly tired. Stickeen
kept springing up and muttering in his sleep, no doubt dreaming
that he was still on the brink of the crevasses; and so did I, that
night and many others long afterward, when I was overtired.
Thereafter Stickeen was a changed dog. During the rest of the trip,
instead of holding aloof, he always lay by my side, tried to keep
me constantly in sight, and would hardly accept a morsel of food,
however tempting, from any hand but mine. At night, when all was
quiet about the campfire, he would come to me and rest his head
on my knee with a look of devotion as if I were his god. And often
as he caught my eye he seemed to be trying to say, "Wasn't
that an awful time we had together on the glacier?"
Nothing in after years has dimmed that Alaska storm-day. As I write
it all comes rushing and roaring to mind as if I were again in the
heart of it. Again I see the gray flying clouds with their rain-floods
and snow, the ice-cliffs towering about the shrinking forest, the
majestic ice-cascade, the vast glacier outspread before its white
mountain-fountains, and in the heart of it the tremendous crevasse-emblem
of the valley of the shadow of death-low clouds trailing over it,
the snow falling into it, and on its brink I see little Stickeen,
and I hear his cries for help and his shouts of joy. I have known
many dogs, and many a story I could tell of their wisdom and devotion
but to none do I owe so much as to Stickeen. At first the least
promising and least known of my dog-friends, he suddenly became
the best known of them all. Our storm-battle for life brought him
to light, and through him as through a window I have ever since
been looking with deeper sympathy into all my fellow mortals.
None of Stickeen's friends knows what finally became of him. After
my work for the season was done I departed for California, and I
never saw the dear little fellow again. In reply to anxious inquiries
his master wrote me that in the summer of 1883 he was stolen by
a tourist at Fort Wrangell and taken away on a steamer. His fate
is wrapped in mystery. Doubtless he has left this world- crossed
the last crevasse-and gone to another. But he will not be forgotten.
To me Stickeen is immortal.
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